As the deadline to submit an idea for BlogHer ’14 fast approaches, I keep opening and shutting the tab with that link over there. The days are passing quickly, and if I don’t get my idea out there, it will be December 3 and the big idea will hit me.
First, I should say that I haven’t bought my ticket yet. I know. I feel like a small fish in a big sea of bloggers.
Many times, I’ve said I don’t do it for the stats or the popularity. I don’t think my writing is that poignant, funny, or even worth stopping by; however, time and again, at least 50 of you a day come for a visit. (Thank you.) In the scheme of things, the views per year on this ‘lil blog are slightly more than the number of women (and men) who attend a conference like BlogHer.
And maybe that’s why I haven’t bought my ticket yet. Truthfully, it has nothing to do with anything except for my own nerves about why I do what I do.
But maybe that’s why I need to dig my heals in, buy my ticket, submit my proposal. Talk about being a small fish in a big sea and how I can’t let that drag me down from telling my story.
Because you see, I have a lot of stories to tell. Like this one. Or this one. Or that one. Stories that have made me me. Stories that bring readers here (from I don’t always know where). Stories I want my kids to know, but stories I may not have the courage to verbalize to them. Yet.
Maybe it’s time to do what a fellow strong woman, Sheryl Sandberg suggests and Lean In. Submit that proposal for a panel of women who do well at telling their stories while staying small…and how that’s okay. That it’s how we keep our balance and cool.
And even if my leaning in doesn’t work out? It will be okay, because I tried. Because I pushed my self. And because I’ll still make BlogHer ’14 a thing and still have an adorable ‘lil man who’s willing to cuddle up in my lap and make me smile.